I can do anything I set my mind to- I know that.
But I find that I'm too tired to want.
I've spent so much time clawing my way through things, that I find all I'm really interested in at this point is a manicure.
Which I hate for reasons going way back to my mother when I was little.
But I digress.
I don't want to fight anymore.
I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I don't want to be second.
I don't want to be out-of-reach ideal.
I don't want to be friends.
I don't want to put up with bullshit I don't deserve.
I want my roommate to start actually paying rent.
I want to be able to live my own life without getting dragged into my mother's drama.
I want to feel like I have endless time in front of me to better myself and enjoy things.
I want him to stop it.
I want someone for myself that is as good to me and cares for me as much as Ayrian.
I want to find my love for my job again.
I want my father to come visit.
I want somebody besides my friends to think I'm pretty.
I want to spend more time with Emma.
I want to paint my front door TARDIS blue.
I want an umbrella for the yard.
I want sod for the yard.
I want the dogs to embrace the yard more.
I want what I had.
I want gel nail polish to get cheaper so I can keep my nails the TARDIS blue I like so much. Otherwise I may ditch the cable....
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